I admit, I've been a little grumpy lately and down in the dumps. This year has been nonsense after nonsense of things I just can't control- car window getting smashed in with a baseball bat, sickness that lasted four months, 2 broken computers, home issues (dealing with a roommate who lied about cancer, unfortunately this is true), family struggles, and the constant stresses of Hollywood and having doors slammed in your face. OR, none opened at all. Life can kick your ass sometimes and it becomes very difficult to remain positive. I had to work really hard to not lash out at those close to me. I'm not sure I have done the greatest job with that though, sorry.
Then one morning you wake up to some good news and life begins to shine again. For example, the web series that I have been working on, 12 TeEn, was just accepted into LAWebFest 2015! AND, just THIS morning I found out I was nominated for "Outstanding Lead Actress" in a comedy! Say what? The little series that started off as a joke, has now given me a writing, producing, and directing credit as well as an opportunity to win an award. This is awesome. I didn't even think I would be accepted into the festival in the first place. I know it doesn't have the highest production value, but it is a great start. Completing a web series is an accomplishment in itself. It feels really nice being recognized for your hard work.
I think that with the more you struggle, the sweeter your success' are. I have this theory about struggle and I believe everyone should have a good amount of struggle in their lives and careers. Talk to my boyfriend and he can tell you how often I talk about this. For now though, I'll save this for another post.
Hollywood is a survival of the fittest. How long can you hang in there? Do you have the motivation and support to keep going? We have to fall sometimes to gain the strength to climb back up. Good luck my friends! We'll climb together.